I love me. *_*

Just wanted in the "mood" and since mother-nature is chillin with me I'mma look at myself. 

x___x 

Lol. Wonder who that is o___O 

Aight. I'm done. 

To be in L O V E : Her Eyes.

love

   [luhv] noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.

–noun

1.

a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, asfor a parent, child, or friend.

3.

sexual passion or desire.

4.

a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person;sweetheart.

Today, I'm not going at your throats. I wanted to do a post about, L o v e. A word that scares some, Others Fiend for. For me personally, I enjoy being loved and being in love. In Love, being that you're deeply involved with someone because we should naturally love everyone. From my own personal experiences of love I've grown to understand the changes Love brings. 

• It starts slowly. The more time you spend with a person and the more you talk, you acquire this longing feeling for that person in particular. You'll catch yourself asking, "I wonder what _______ is up to?"
• Because you don't want to seem needy or desperate you try your very hardest not to call, text or contact that said person. In fears of pushing them away or seeming thirsty. 
• When a particular song comes on you instantly think of them. 
• When they call or Text you, it seems like your day has gotten so much better. Your heart flutters and you feel wanted. #Tip: Women like that. 
• After time passes you get a little more attached, which is scary, but hopefully this person allows you to be comfortable with your feelings and THEY should do that by showing you THEIR emotions.
• The words, "I love you" are on the tip of your tongue. Regardless of how they feel you know your emotions But you don't know if you should say it just yet. #Tip: Save those words unless you're completely sure. 
• After these points you become inseparable, when you miss this person the longing feeling seems like a weight that only that person can lift. 
• You think back to the beginning, "how did I fall for _____ ?" You assess the situation and make sure you've gotten all of the right signals. Then Let 'em have it. What do you have to lose? 

Love makes us all blind. It can make us stronger or weaker. Our judgement is altered. You tend to know something isn't right, but love makes you do it anyway. We do these things with the best of intentions but we want it so bad we lose our logic. Even myself. I don't have a way for you cure this love sickness, If you figure it out let me know. 

Giving your FINAL f u c k s.

 Take a second and imagine how you would feel if someone were to steal your car, crash it. Then spit in your face on top of being angry with you.  ( No this has never happened to me.) Imagine how feed up, disrespected and unappreciated you would feel. No one wants to be run over forever, but who want's to be a victim all the time. It's now the season of NOT giving a FUCK. Giving, meaning wasting time + energy + effort. A F u c k being any person or situation that isn't worth losing breath over. Petty things that belong in the playground, because we're all adults here. This passing summer has been full of petty issues, just things that generally happens.

• Who fucked who? || Who GIVES A FUCK?! If it doesn't have to do with you, mind your damn business, this is obviously not going to make you ANY money or gain you mentally. Read a book nigga.
• Twitter Beef. || Now this is simply an example of wanting attention or trying to cyber bully someone. Just because the altercation is being publicized dosen't make it okay for you to intervene. Just because you see something negative doesn't mean re-tweet it, why be an instigator? Again, You aren't gaining by giving fucks. 
• Getting "Played" || What I mean by this is those men and women who go out catching feelings for someone who doesn't want them. GET THE FUCK OVER IT. 

<----- Bringin' it a l l together. -----> 

As humans we are distracted from our fates. D e a t h. The time is approaching and if you're stuck on theses TRIVIAL matters your whole life you won't enjoy your time here. Don't waste your youth being a bitter, worrisome, and NOSY.  You have your own life to live, and if you want drama, watch television. These people you're so into aren't loosing sleep for you so just move on. Our world is so large and vast. I don't think people understand that they place limitations on themselves by indulging in minimal problems. Think about it.

Pick y o u r mask.

"Fake it until you make it."


When you start you teenage career you began to develop (a) Personality(ies).

• Some of us ( including myself) rebel against our peers. We were the "weird" kids who have dealt with social judgment. Simply because we decided to take a more. .. original path.  
• Some of us decided to just follow trends and "fit in" because the larger population has deemed it normal. 
• Some of us envy the originality and demeanor of those who endured the struggle it is to be one of the "weird kids" and have developed a parallel culture. By parallel culture I mean one that claims to be full of originality but only in reality it's a complete contradiction. *cough* H I P S T E R S. :/

As young adults we learn to adjust and turn on different "Personalities" that we've acquired during communicating with different people.  

ex. 

Black Male : What up bruh?

Black Male 2: What's up nigga?

--

Interviewing White Male: How are you Sir?

Black Male: I'm doing fine, and you fellow?

haha Get it? Cool. 

We naturally create sub-personalities to ....Hmm Blend? But Not necessarily blend but when in rome, do as the romans.  I'm not sayin you walk into a room full of coke-heads and YOU do a line, but you don't go inside and say "Ewww Ya'll Nasty" either. Am I right? Because you're not completely hiding who you are we'll call these sub-personalities "Masks" You can see the outline, but the face just isn't there. Masks can be in several different forms. 

1. You've clung to this mask for so long you've accepted that this is who you find most "popular" amongst your peers. This mask is different from others because this mask changes a person's likes, dislikes, morals and ambitions. Scary.
2. Another mask is one that allows you to blend momentarily only to let your actual personality shine threw, a uniform perhaps. Appearance is almost everything after all.
3. The final mask is one we all commonly use the family vs friend mask. There are qualities we may have that we wouldn't want our parents, aunts and uncles to see. 

These are after-all survival tactics and we're built for survival. We do what we must to get where we want. Would you call someone surviving fake? When you figure out what's real and what isn't let me know. I'll blog about it. 

The S t r o n g Prevail

strong

  [strawng, strong] adjective, strong·er [strawng-ger, strong-], strong·est [strawng-gist, strong-] adverb

–adjective

1.

having, showing, or able to exert great bodily or muscularpower; physically vigorous or robust: mentally powerful or vigorous: He may be old, but his mindis still strong.

“That which does not kill us makes us stronger.”

I was debating on how to start this post, I mean, how can you define strength. Physical, the making (For Victory) or breaking (Creating more angst) point. Get it? 

ex. You're at a party and someone steps on your shoes. Nigga Moment.  

You could always use your mental strength and walk away from the matter because, after all they are just shoes. / Or in an alternant reality you could physically beat that person showing your masculine strength (physical). Violence shouldn't be the first response unless you must protect yourself. Even still, Nigga's don't fight anymore, they shoot.    

[ Back to the p o i n t --->]

To me, You aren't born with mental strength this is something you acquire as you deal with stressing, uncomfortable, tragic, near death experiences. Battles that you walk away from wounded but alive. Relationships are commonly known to make or break someone's valor.  In a relationship your guard is down and you allow someone into you completely. It's a risky situation to let someone in completely because "Nothing is for sure, nothing is for certain, nothing lasts forever." When that chapter of your life ends you'll be "heart broken" or the clinical term depressed. No one wants to deal with this type of stress but it happens when you're out looking for love and security. Now there are paths coming of this road. You can take a destructive path of pure e m o t i o n just taking what you can get and running with it. You can also take the path of logic that creates growth and prosperity. The time span can never be determined because we are all different but if you let the heart break consume you, you're wasting time you'll n e v e r get back. Remember that. 

The strength you could potentially gain from this feat is magnetic. People attract to the heart broken strength this means you can make it alone. Alone, a word that is almost feared but we came here alone so we are built to survive alone. In this context alone meaning single. Who want's some wounded puppy anyway? Suck it up people, life goes on & again time wait's for no one.  

He Said, She said

Now as adults we know what love really is, or we have a decent understanding of it. We've also come to understand that there are defiantly levels of love. There's the "do or die" or the "there's the I have no choice but to love you." Now along with love comes sex, you're retarded if you don't believe so. Or a prostitute.

There's a few titles to the sex x love chart. There's :

• I love you therefore I'll have sex with you.
• I want you to love me so I'll have sex with you.
• Having Sex with you will make me love you.
• I love sex. 

Me personally, I couldn't have sex with someone that I didn't feel a connection with. Whether it be a mental or physical one. It creates a perfect atmosphere for the most preformed art. It's also good for not ending up looking  bad in the end too. Reputation is the social resume. 

[ Now to the g o o d stuff. --->]

From being on twitter and dealing with people my whole life I have begun to understand types of personalities. Yeah, TYPES of Personalities. Nothing , No ONE is original. The world is just recycled so almost everything has been done. Get over it. 

The Artistic STRAIGHT male. 

• Now we've all seen these guys, the type to tell you what you want to hear. As common as it sounds it's true. /Shrug/ These guys are seemingly the full package but as you grow closer they aren't looking to be in a relationship. Which is what we all would like eventually, something stable, someone to call when ever. Whatever reason he has be it His Ambitions and Work, Baby Momma Drama, or he might just be a hoe.  He will make it clear /as nice as they can/ that a relationship is not what he's lookin for. This male will also drag the drama along though, you see despite his wishes to not be in a relationship he feels relieved that he can have a woman who'll talk to him or keep him company. They often get so comfortable with this that they forget the woman's desires of   settling down.  These niggas should stop acting like boys and be MEN. You don't want a relationship? Then don't cuddle her. 

The Women who l o v e 'em.

• These girls. These girls. It would be absurd to blame it all on the un-complex but perplexed guys. These women are close to manipulative, naive, and have a victim complex. Bitter women, "Nigga's ain't shit" Type girls. That Pa-pa syndrome usually is this woman's foundation. Even if that isn't the case they have scars from a previous fuck up. Just like in division, you still have to carry over that baggage.  [I'm no math wiz. ] These factors are what create a marvelous woman or a bag lady. They have this false shield over their hearts and still end up hurt. They forget that "Catching Feelings" / although it's seemingly impossible / is against the rules. They also forget that this world is VAST AND WIDE there are so many other hunnies out their for the taking. On to the Next one ladies. Suck it up The cameras are watching. 

Just my scattered thoughts. More to come. :) <3

The Morning After Party

Back in May I threw a VERY successful party. Because of some untrained monkeys a fight broke out. Then men began to pull out CLIPLESS guns. Even still, By the time I turned around all of my guest had ran for dear life. Made me realize how much people care and how trill they can't be. I'm sure rumors are flying around even still, but to ease your minds, "All safety measures will be made and we'll have an amazing time." Scouts Honor. :)

You can expect the usual smoky rooms, Packed Balcony, and there will be drinks. Feel Free to put in to the mix. I mean, why else come if you don't? 

Let's get it Atlanta!

P.S If anything does break out, I'm personally gunna break their face. ;]

The First of Many.

Let me start by saying it's actually been a minute since I've written about myself. Well, typed but you know what I mean. Anyway. I'm Kit, but you know that...that's why you're here right? If not, It's nice to meet you.


So about last night.

So my homie and producer Jimmie invited me to this party the other day. I haven't been out in a while, not for any particular reason cept a nigga be broke and it's probably more fun smokin and doin nothin in my own home. Regardless, I went last night. It was at Sampson ST lofts. A really dope area, I've been there a few times throughout my Atlanta adventures. Before that thou I chilled with Bryant and watched half of the disney movie Up...Or was that Pixtar....or are they the same? o___O

[back to the point -->]


So there was this white chick that was there and we all noticed her. She had a nice a s s body. No homo. As the night progressed me and a few others discussed how the woman was lookin, choosin'. ha. I almost couldn't believe it, but when I got closer to her she started signalin' and before I knew it old lady was up my skirt grabbin my butt. >_______<


Now, By a show of hands, How many of ya'll can compare stories? Ha. Don't worry, I'll wait.

Shout out to Esseance, Nick, Frank, Scarlett, Tan, and everyone else that came out. :)